I'm a thirty year old epileptic who's had grand mal seizure for over half a decade. It seemed to have originated with some extremely heavy migraines in my teenage years. I've got quite a unique situation when it comes to my brain's capabilities and instead of truly figuring out how I've managed to keep so cognitively capable through my multitude of serious episodes there looks to be a lobectomy planned in my future. Years of scans leading to my country's neurologist team considering just removing the portion most commonly active during my seizures. I'm here on this site to try and find a way to translate my brain mapping in more detailed ways so I can join the debate of reviewing what operations I should have. Currently even on a high dosage of Clobazam my body is still able to send me to the ER on occasion.

Though I'm no medical profession my understanding of computer engineering has me looking at my issues as a memory leak problem, something about sleep's natural ability to compress the thoughts delt with through a conscious mind's day doesn't seem filter what's kept up there properly. Leading to an almost timed to the day monthly event for over 5 years. I don't believe removing a portion of my left clavicle is going to solve this problem, and on top of that believe I've begun achieving an alternate state of consciousness as a self defense mechanism adapting to the system crashes to keep the functioning portions safe from prolonged disability. I call my situation unique because I've needed to recover my state of being from what feels like a complete neurological shutdown after episodes, even experiencing the daunting concept of waking up unable to recognize my own name briefly while I organize my thoughts. This has happened multiple times, meaning during such an event I go through the process of recalibrating my base memories attached to the history of the person I am and then the memories of the past times of having to do so. Seemingly an effect of a high level of neuroplasticity, the engine portion of my head rebooting stronger than my databank.